1st of all, a big apology to whoever might be hurt by this entry. As usual, I need to let it out so then I wont keep carrying any burden inside. Im sure that everybody must have their 1st LOVE, am I right? so do I and this confession is all about him...
His name is Fathul Muin Anuar. My space was the place where we've known each other, its doesnt take a long time for us to get closed then being a lover. I was really in love with him, he was different from the others guy I ever been with. Oh by the way, he is my long distance lover. We've been together for 1 year and half, even though I've been with a few guy before, but he is actually my 1st LOVE. He ever cheat on me once, but still, I can't let him go even I want to, so I stayed. There's too much memories to be remembered, neither the sweet or bad, it never get erased from my mind. The one I couldnt forget was bout our 1st met, he lied to me bout his shirt colour, I was like crazy looking around to make sure I met the right guy. He suddenly came and surprised me from behind. Speechless, nervous, scared, happy, and my heart beat faster. I love what I saw, his smile. I think it was the sweetest smile I ever seen. Im falling for him over and over again, something that I never felt before. I love him more than every man I ever been with, no lies...
But sadly, 1st will not always be the last, I knew its was my fault...
The relationship ends with pain when I left him for stupid reason which is, no reason.
"I'm so sorry for everything, but I know you'll be just fine without me. You'll always good without me... I messed up once and I think thats enough. We will never be back like before, no matter how hard we try, it couldnt works. I said bout letting you go before, I dont really do... but Im about to do it now, Im gonna let you go and this time, for real... "
Fathul Muin Anuar
Thanks for everything, thanks for make me smile and give me chance to be with you. Its such a wonderful memory, U taught me bout love, miss, hurts, pain, and everything. May you got all happiness in this world.
May God Bless You
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