"CRY"

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart



How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry


This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

MAJOR PROB...

I have MAJOR problem with myself... EGO. Im not sure where the hell this attitude came from, I just dont know... I cant even admit to a little stupid stupid things such as 'miss you' or 'need you' when I really do, I would rather die with it than to spoke it out. This stupidity brought me the hurtful feeling but been covered by emotionless face. Damn you, EGO!

'Ugly attitude'

Untold feeling...

The 1st entry in 2013...

Sometimes, I get confused with myself. I did something confidently and thought that was what I want, but at the end of the day that was not. Keep doing something I shouldnt do, missing someone that I shouldnt miss, hurting people that I shouldnt hurt, be with someone I shouldnt be with and end up just being stupid. I probably just missed you... I guess that was my problem and need to figure out how to handle it. Thats all.